Looking Back....

I know its been a really long time since I have blogged... I get on here from time to time and stare at the screen... I think, 'What should I write?'.  I've been working so much lately and I haven't been very good at taking pictures either, so I feel like anything I post would bore the socks of you!  I know that I have probably lost a lot of readers because of this.  But here I am, 2 months later... but I'm still here!

Today is our 7th wedding anniversary to the greatest, funniest man I know.  It seems like just yesterday I was in the dressing room (okay, it was really a very large bathroom, but oh well) and I asked one of my friends to go take a picture of Bonham in his tux, so that I could see him before the ceremony!  I got a little teary-eyed when I saw the picture.  He looked so handsome...

I remember bits and pieces of those days surrounding our wedding and I'm sure as time goes by I will remember things I had forgotten about the day and I will forgot some of the things that I thought I would always remember....

• I remember feeling like the day was chaotic and looking back, I wish that I would have had someone make things flow better like I tried to do for brides when we DJ'd their weddings. 
• I remember guests walking up while I was having my pictures taken and I wish that no one would have seen me before I entered the doors to walk down the isle. 
• I remember that my bridesmaids disappeared into the restaurant bar (a lot) and I wish they would have been around more...
• I remember the music was very soft and at times you couldn't even hear it... I wish we would have cranked it up and we would have danced!
• I remember that we forgot to do a toast! I wish that we would have had one...
• I remember that my mom made me this fake bouquet to toss and while I appreciated her effort to make it something that would last, I didn't like it and I wish that I would have thrown a real bouquet.  And I also wish I that would have thrown it the traditional way (behind my head), instead of listening to my photographer... he told me to turn around and throw it to directly to someone.  While that seems like a cute idea, I was also told a name of a person to throw it to.  Unfortunately, there were 2 people in the group of girls with that name and I threw it to my cousin's date (who I had only met for the first time that day) and he broke up with her a few months later - what a waste of a throw!
• I remember 2 of my 3 sister-in-laws not really talking to me at all that day.  Looking back, I wish that there had been better relationships there and that it would have been a more joyous occasion for them.
• I remember meeting Robert's parents for the first time at our rehearsal dinner.  I wish that I would have talked to them more.  Bonham and I didn't really become close to them until after Jayna was born.  Bonham's grandma Calk (or Mimi as came to call her) passed away in May of 2011 and we miss her very much. 

I know it seems like everything I remember is negative, but here is the good stuff....

• I remember my dad giving me a bracelet that day and I cried.
• I remember feeling so beautiful in my wedding dress.
• I remember my bridesmaids trying to trick me by saying that they were going to wear these ugly, ugly shoes.... and I said, 'They're great - that will work!' and they cracked up laughing... I really didn't care about anything except making it down that aisle!
• I remember shaking, crying, laughing as a I walked down the isle and my dad had to tell me to 'breathe'.  Thanks dad!  :)
• I remember my uncle Rob (who preformed the ceremony) surprised my with a beautiful poem that I had always wanted as part of my wedding ceremony.
• I remember my dad pulling me away from some pictures to have our father/daughter dance and just then, I heard someone call my name over the speakers... it was Sonny Burgess!  He was there to perform a song for me and my dad to dance to.
• I remember the funny moments of our ceremony where the crowd laughed.... one was where I really emphasized the words 'For Richer' (that might have been a jinx - I don't recommend this) and the other was when we were repeating our vows.  I was so nervous, so I tried to really concentrate as Bonham said his part.  When it was my turn and my uncle said, 'And to obey...' I turned my turned my head to look at him and I paused... not for comical relief, but out of confusion.  I thought to myself, 'Bonham didn't say those words...' It wasn't until after the ceremony that I realized that men don't say that part!  Haha!  I'm doing my best to 'obery', but some times are harder than others....
• I remember Bonham's dad telling us how he loved Bonham's mom more than anything on their wedding day, and when their first child was born, he loved her more.... and the love grew and grew over the years.  That was really sweet and I hope that I never forget those words.  He also told me that I made a beautiful bride.... Thanks Robert!
• I remember our last dance and how we were interrupted 5 million times!  Oh well!
• I remember trying to drive away and there was so much on the truck and so many blind spots that Bonham asked me if I could drive, so I did.  (trying to obey!  lol)
• I won't share anymore memories from that night except for the room service - that was awesome!  With every order, the hotel brought us little carnations (which are my favorite flower) and these tiny little jars of ketchup, jelly, etc.  My plan was to keep them forever.  (I don't know where they are now)
• I remember one of the first things that Bonham told me the morning after we were married... he reached over and put his hand on my stomach and the actual words escape me now, but it was something along the lines of 'I can't wait to feel our babies kick, or grow, etc.'  Anyway, it was sweet and it started a CRAZY baby fever that continues to this day!!!  We had originally talked about waiting 2 years or so to start trying for a baby... we waited all of 5 months to start trying!  We were young and we didn't know how long it took for most people to get pregnant.  It actually didn't take us long at all.  Since then, we have known a lot of people who have struggled to get pregnant.  We count our blessings and consider ourselves fortunate. 
• And lastly, I remember meeting up with my new in-laws the next day and the first thing my mother-in-law said to me was, 'How was last night?' ahahahahaha.... I looked at Bonham and looked back at Julie (in all of her innocence) and I said, 'What do you mean?'  She said, 'The reception...'  I said,' You were there...'  And she said, 'I know I was there; I just wanted to see what you thought of it.'   Since then, Bonham and I have laughed about that and thought of some pretty funny things I could have said in response to her initial question.  I give you one.... 'Well, your son was amazing!'  too much???  Okay, I'll stop there!  I hope you got a laugh out of that!

I guess I remember more than I thought!!!  That was fun!!!  Hopefully, by blogging these memories here they won't fade as fast.  In the end, I got what I wanted: Sonny Burgess singing at my wedding, a purple wedding cake, and I got to marry Bonham!  Those were the 3 things I told my mom that I really wanted on that day and she could do whatever else she wanted.

Bonham and I went on a date last night to celebrate our anniversary and my parents kept the kids overnight.  It was nice to have a little mommy/daddy time. I'm not a very mushy-gushy person.  Bonham is better at saying, 'I love you' and being romantic... but I'm trying.   :)  All couples have their moments of ups and downs, but when I look at Bonham and I look at our children, I know that he is the only one for me and I  DO love him more now than I did 7 years ago.  I love to see him smile; I love that he still give me butterflies; I love to feel his arms around me; I love to hear him tell me that I beautiful or sexy (and most of the time it's when I feel the most unattractive - I love that LOVE is blind!).  I love you Bonham!